A Wait, An Experience

Been quite lazy at blogging this few days, even though I have many things to blog. But, at least I don't blog without thinking. I like posting blogs that I am able to share with you all about the things I see and I feel.

Anyway, last Sunday, after church, I rushed to Toa Payoh Mrt station to meet my volleyball teamates as we were having bbq later that evening. I thought I was late but I ended up reaching there earlier than I expected. So, I thought my friends would be on time, but I was wrong, VERY WRONG!!! I called Ritz and he was still at home! God wonders what he was doing! Grr...! So, I had to wait for almost another half an hour more!

During that period, I just stood there and did nothing, looking at people walking pass me. I was like so bored and tired. Then Ritz and Ming Seng came and wah la! I thought we could finally go, but no. A man with sores all over his bodies came right in front of me and asked, " Are you a Christian?" I replied yes. He saw the cross I was wearing. Then he told me he was a Christian too. I learnt from the conversation that he was suffering from kidney failure and heart disease. The sores on his bodies were from an accident. His body was not able to heal properly. He wanted me to help him by buying some things he was holding in his hands. There were CDs and bread. He then prayed with me and he told me about his sufferings. I saw tears flowing out of his eyes. I cannot bear to see this. He then told me he was from my church too. I started to doubt him. But I don't mind if he was lying to me! I don't care! I wanted to help him! If he lies to me, so be it. I don't wish to know about it. At least, I know that I didn't put myself into suspense, thinking whether I just saw someone go, without me ever seeing again and not helping. So, I forked out 5 dollars. He insisted i take something. I insisted no. It is so sad. Such a age, and he needs to sell dirt cheap stuff like bread to maintain his income. Very sad...

Then, my church friends came along and saw me. I then left them with him and went off. For days the incident just stayed in my mind. I can't forget it. God thought me a lesson. He made my friends late to let me see this person I guess. I don't know. All I know is life is unfair and it will never be fair. God's love is universal though, he bless those he wants to and shower everyone with love. It's just whether you want to open up the door in your heart to invite Him in and live in paradise. Choices....

I leave you all in hope of peace. Amen..

Christmas; The Day A Savior Was Born

Yesterday, I was walking down Orchard Road, with my family. We were there for shopping and boy should I say I was drowned in an endless flow of people! There seems to be thousands of people in Orchard Road, cause there was a Christmas Parade going on then.

Since I was in Orchard Road, must as well take a look at the parade. I saw many decorated cars or lorries... whatever, mobile decorations... -_- on the road. I thought to myself, this must be just some other kind of commercial activity that make use the period of christmas to boost their sales, or some other activity to boost the Singapore tourism ( like it is of any attraction!). Anyway, I had some doubts on the real meaning of the activity, until I saw the mobile decorations myself.

One of the decorations had these words " Onto us a Son is born". I was amazed! It actually decpicted the birth of Jesus! Then, there was another mobile decoration that depicted the birth of Jesus in the horse mangel, with Mary and Joseph. I was delighted! After years of waiting, someone finally depicted the real meaning of Christmas!

Christmas is NOT about Santa and his elves. Christmas is NOT about unwrapping gifts under Christmas trees. Christmas is NOT about eating turkey and Christmas dinner. Christmas is about ONE BABY, ONE MAN, ONE GOD, His affection and Love for us. It is about the birth of Messiah. The birth of Jesus. It is through Him can only we reach out to our pure and Holy heavenly Father. He gave His one and only son to save us from the depths of sin.

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life." John 3:16

May God bless you with peace and serenity. Amen

A Stroll; It All Begins...

Tonight, I am alone at home as my sister is going to her prom night and my parents have an outing with my mum's colleague or something. So, for dinner, I had to go to Sunshine Place opposite my block to buy something to fill my stomach.

After dinner, I decided to take a stroll at the brink of the protected area next to my block. It was very quiet and the serenity is just so enjoyable. The air was very cooling and refreshing. It is under this kind of condition that we are able come face to face with our own real self.

I started doing some self talk in my mind, going through the happenings that ocurred in daytime. I looked at myself and others, I realised, human nature is and will always be, evil... I started to feel fustrated and sad over this fact and I just kept on grumbling to myself. Then, a thought struck me. Why am I wasting all my life doing things that are meaningless, doing things that just brings a short sense of pleasure but can never feel the empty soul? Computer games blah blah blah, that all just seems so irrelevant to me as I pondered on. They all just make us live in a virtual world, achieving things that we never tried to aspire in real life. That's it, I made up my mind. I wanted to do something big, something that many people thought of doing but never started. I am on my way! I see myself growing old, living a simple life with my wife and children, serving a spiritual self.

All these might seem so dumb to you all. But it really just struck me and I suddenly have this passion, this unstoppable drive to aim for something I longed wanted to do. Now, I want to start... It all begins from here...

I would like to quote a chinese saying that I love very much. I found it very effective in encouraging me to step out of my comfort zone and venture into my very first step. Just like Samwise Gamgee did in LOTR, when he first stepped out of Shire, his beloved home. The saying is as follow:
千里之行，始以足下

May God bless all that lives by His ways...

God ; Creator of all Miracles

It was on saturday that my church organised a 在你身边 concert. It is a mini concert perfomed by a christian band called '7 Days'.

As you will be able to guess, the performance was rocking! We rocked the whole of Toa Payoh with the jarring music and melodious songs. I really want to thank God that he got so many people around the estate to come down to our church to listen to the music. Many of them just drop by out of curiousity and 'boom', they got the performance of their lifetime! I also want to thank God, so much that we were able to have 10 new believers out of the 300 over audiences that came to our church! That was certainly amazing!

On a personal basis, I would also want to thank God for working miracles out for me, even when I am at my most down. That day, I invited the whole of my sec 4 volleyball team mates to join me in the concert. I was hoping to invite as many non-christian as possible, wanting them to know the love and glory of God. I have to thank Chunli for helping me reach out to the girls. :) Anyway, no one from my side wanted to come! I mean I would have expected that but then, the feeling was just too depressing. I prayed to God and he guided me by asking me not to give up. And so, I came online, in search of people I could invite. It just so happen that one of my volleyball team mate (T1) was online. T1 rejected me earlier on, but I tried persuading him, hoping that he would come. Just then, Chunli came online also and she helped me persuade him also. Thank God! After hours of persuasion, he finally got as close as to being uncertain whether to go or not to go ( very tiring you know that :P).

As I had to go and prepare for lunch, I went offline, leaving Chunli to deal with the ordeal of persuading him (Sorry :( ). I then messaged him after my lunch and he gave a solid 'No'. Depressing... Very depressing......

Just then, I came across one of the bible verses. It is as follows:

"Then you will be handed over to be persecuted and put to death, and you will be hated by all nations because of me." Matthew 24:9

This is one famous verse that predicts the rejection of christian from the world while serving God and it gave me strength in wanting to share the burden of Christ. My burden is so insignificant as that compared to Jesus!

Another verse stated about Jesus:

"The stone the builders rejected has become the capstone; the Lord done this, and it is marvellous in our eyes" Matthew 21:42

And so, I just kept praying to God, in hope that T1 would come. I left it to God, to His will on whether he hoped to bring T1 to our midst. And so, I put everything at the back of my mind, prepared to go to church and I took the MRT to Toa Payoh.

As I was dozing off in the train when it reached Yio Chu Kang, I felt my handphone vibrate. To my suprise, it was T1! He messaged me, asking about the concert. He then told me that he wanted to come! I felt like yelling on the train then! The joy of seeing him come was never felt before. He then told me that he felt like there was nothing to do after his afternoon nap and was just curious to drop by. Hallelujah!

Many a times, we just left to many things to ourselves. In the end, we burdened ourselves too much, resulting in sulky emotions. I learnt that we should just leave it to God as he is our most faithful friend. Even till the end of time, he would still be there for you and me, if you believe...

I would like to bring your attention to this verse:
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

Volleyball Chalet; A Happy Time In My Memory

I just came back from volleyball chalet today. It was really fun to be with my volleyball friends and seniors from both CHS and NYGH. Did many things like playing beach volleyball and card games. I loved the game 'RISK' I played with the guys. It was very funny, you can see all the backstabbing from the game. Haha...

Mind you, I think I am bloating from the 2 Bk meals I ate consecutively yesterday. I don't know how much exercise I need to do in order to burn off those fats! After all the training with the HCJC volleyball team, it makes me feel very guilty to eat such unhealthy food.

Anyway, this chalet was really a memorable one, and it will always be. But I really felt a little down when I left the chalet today. Looking back at all the times we shared, being a team and facing difficulties together, I cannot bear to see myself parting with these friends. Some of my team mates commented that they do not want to join volleyball anymore in JC. I really felt downcast hearing that as this meant that I will have less chance to be in contact with them. All the time we had sharing crap, talking nonsensical stuff, really seems to be passing and fading away fast. This chalet just really marks the end of my relationship with my volleyball team mates in secondary school, whether we would be able to stay the way it is for the future, let fate decide.

As I was walking down the car park at my block, I had this strange question in my mind. How many people do you get to see and to know in your life, that they just seems as though you have known them forever, yet they just disappear like flowers wither from your life, hardly do you ever see them again. The more I thought of this question, the more sad I become. Maybe I should just leave it to God, nothing can change His will. All I know is that He will be the most trusted friend in the my life and will always be.

Why do people have more of these weird feeling as they grow older? Why do they love to look back at the past? Why do they do lots of weird things just to relive that short, memorable feeling, just like it is in the show " 6 Weeks"? I don't know, I just don't know...That brings me to one of the verses in the bible. Jesus said that only people with the heart of a child would be able to pass through the gate of Heaven. Indeed, adults burden themselves too much with this kind of relationship. This is because they have experienced hurting ones, only to realise how precious those true relationship really are. For a child, he knows no hatred and unreal relationship. All he knows is that someone who gives him a sweet is someone that is a friend, connected with a beautiful kind of feeling. That feeling is love. How sweet and pure that kind of love is, just like how much God loves us.

I am really feeling very weird now. This kind of feeling have never struck me so hardly before, and I am just sitting here, contemplating what the future holds for my destiny. Maybe it is time I let go of my feelings and let God perform His will on my life. Let God...

May God grant you the peace and serenity in the soul. Amen...