11 years and ending... A lesson learnt...

The moments on court,
I was ready for all.
Giving my very best,
I stood to the test.

Little did I know 11 years passed,
something I can't understand.
I braved it all,
picking up when I fall.

They looked me in the eyes with hate,
they shot me behind my back.
Blood of friendships flowed,
from the aching wounds of my soul.

I thought I trusted them,
but I feel my instincts go.
They weren't made out what I made them out to be,
Help me, I don't know.

Nevertheless, few passed by in my life,
knowing I was never always right.
Forgiveness was all I asked for,
and forgiveness they gave.
Understanding I thirst for,
more understanding came.

To them a thousands thanks I give,
for you are the reason I lead.
Support you gave me,
and spark the passionate fuel I burn.

Eleven years in my life,
never have I seen such failure.
Eleven years in my life,
never have I seen such selfishness.
Eleven years in my life,
never have I seen such mindlessness.

Hard as it seems,
it came.
Cold as it seems,
it hurts.
A thorn in the flesh,
that always stings,
I choose to shun it,
just to find peace.

Mistakes I made,
anger I vented.
Fustrations I expressed,
lonliness I felt.
All these has come to pass.
ONE HAS TO REALISE HIS MISTAKE!
ONE HAS TO BE HUMBLE!
ONE HAS TO BE LAST TO BE FIRST,
BECAUSE I WAS CALLED TO SERVE.

Give me time, give me space.
Give me understanding, give me grace.
If only you were in my shoes,
would you know it is not easy
to be me.

TO BE ME...

11 years have come to pass. Eleven years it will end. I will be the silent player, that passed by the game. No one knows, no one cares, for mindless commitments I have shed. Fame is not what I asked for, glory is not what I seek. Only foolishness seeks such things, YES YOU THE FOOLISH ONE. Shaken? Feel guilty... No. Not you. IT'S YOU! OVERFLOWING WITH GUILT!

11 years of my life crippled my soul.
What used to be my friend now becomes my foe.
Never mind, I am just the little boy who spent 11 years of his youth,
learning the ugliness of 'brotherhood'.

A lesson learnt.




The court I soon leave... Tears I shall shed...