Tonight, I am alone at home as my sister is going to her prom night and my parents have an outing with my mum's colleague or something. So, for dinner, I had to go to Sunshine Place opposite my block to buy something to fill my stomach.
After dinner, I decided to take a stroll at the brink of the protected area next to my block. It was very quiet and the serenity is just so enjoyable. The air was very cooling and refreshing. It is under this kind of condition that we are able come face to face with our own real self.
I started doing some self talk in my mind, going through the happenings that ocurred in daytime. I looked at myself and others, I realised, human nature is and will always be, evil... I started to feel fustrated and sad over this fact and I just kept on grumbling to myself. Then, a thought struck me. Why am I wasting all my life doing things that are meaningless, doing things that just brings a short sense of pleasure but can never feel the empty soul? Computer games blah blah blah, that all just seems so irrelevant to me as I pondered on. They all just make us live in a virtual world, achieving things that we never tried to aspire in real life. That's it, I made up my mind. I wanted to do something big, something that many people thought of doing but never started. I am on my way! I see myself growing old, living a simple life with my wife and children, serving a spiritual self.
All these might seem so dumb to you all. But it really just struck me and I suddenly have this passion, this unstoppable drive to aim for something I longed wanted to do. Now, I want to start... It all begins from here...
I would like to quote a chinese saying that I love very much. I found it very effective in encouraging me to step out of my comfort zone and venture into my very first step. Just like Samwise Gamgee did in LOTR, when he first stepped out of Shire, his beloved home. The saying is as follow:
千里之行，始以足下
May God bless all that lives by His ways...