Been quite lazy at blogging this few days, even though I have many things to blog. But, at least I don't blog without thinking. I like posting blogs that I am able to share with you all about the things I see and I feel.
Anyway, last Sunday, after church, I rushed to Toa Payoh Mrt station to meet my volleyball teamates as we were having bbq later that evening. I thought I was late but I ended up reaching there earlier than I expected. So, I thought my friends would be on time, but I was wrong, VERY WRONG!!! I called Ritz and he was still at home! God wonders what he was doing! Grr...! So, I had to wait for almost another half an hour more!
During that period, I just stood there and did nothing, looking at people walking pass me. I was like so bored and tired. Then Ritz and Ming Seng came and wah la! I thought we could finally go, but no. A man with sores all over his bodies came right in front of me and asked, " Are you a Christian?" I replied yes. He saw the cross I was wearing. Then he told me he was a Christian too. I learnt from the conversation that he was suffering from kidney failure and heart disease. The sores on his bodies were from an accident. His body was not able to heal properly. He wanted me to help him by buying some things he was holding in his hands. There were CDs and bread. He then prayed with me and he told me about his sufferings. I saw tears flowing out of his eyes. I cannot bear to see this. He then told me he was from my church too. I started to doubt him. But I don't mind if he was lying to me! I don't care! I wanted to help him! If he lies to me, so be it. I don't wish to know about it. At least, I know that I didn't put myself into suspense, thinking whether I just saw someone go, without me ever seeing again and not helping. So, I forked out 5 dollars. He insisted i take something. I insisted no. It is so sad. Such a age, and he needs to sell dirt cheap stuff like bread to maintain his income. Very sad...
Then, my church friends came along and saw me. I then left them with him and went off. For days the incident just stayed in my mind. I can't forget it. God thought me a lesson. He made my friends late to let me see this person I guess. I don't know. All I know is life is unfair and it will never be fair. God's love is universal though, he bless those he wants to and shower everyone with love. It's just whether you want to open up the door in your heart to invite Him in and live in paradise. Choices....
I leave you all in hope of peace. Amen..